So, I went over to my place this afternoon to pick up some things and see Kon, and I found a note. I guess the Legion showed up and he went to help them for a while, and he should be back soon. I thought everyone would want to know.
I'll show you. But basically that the Legion showed up and wanted his help, and he needs "space and time and shit." And that he's gone to the future and might be back before we get the note but clearly that's not the case.
I... You could do that? And come back? By choice, I mean. I don't know. He said he needs space, and maybe he does? But--I don't knooow. What do you think?
I know. I do. It's just... We don't know what's going on there, but if they came back for Kon's help, it must be serious, and he won't leave before he's done, and if you're there, you'll want to help and--Blah.
And who I am love you. Or I love you. Or we both love you. Um. Does that make sense?
It wasn't stupid. It's my fault, I'm just on edge because Kon's gone and I know why, and we all know why, and it's just going to make this team thing even harder. I'm sorry.
You're the strongest person I know. No little font. Big font. You're the strongest person I know. It takes strength to be the one that stays behind, Ciss, and to support us even when you can't be part of us. And... it takes strength to walk away. I told you all this.
It's my fault too, for the same reasons. And Cassie and I are talking and it's draining and I don't know what to say to her. And then--Kon would have gone with them even if he wasn't depressed. For the same reason you would stay to help if you went to get him.
:P You did. Thank you. I... Sometimes it's just harder than others, and I was having a moment. I didn't mean to make problems.
I don't know, Cassie. I'm thinking that... this is kind of like what Bart did a while ago, and I'm mad at Kon for running off and worried about him and I'm just--frustrated in general.
Well. I've heard 'team' and 'just us' used interchangeably. As it does involve helping, I think team is the correct word for what I want to convey. And i don't disagree but...he should have I would prefer he'd told someone, not left a note. It's a step up from Bart just disappearing, I suppose.
::sigh:: Then--I guess the word I mean is "family." I suppose we're not really acting like one of those lately, either. But I'm also not sure where the difference between team and family is, if there's one.
I'm sorry. I don't mean to be...cold. This isn't an easy conversation for me.
Whatever we want to call it we are not a cohesive unit at the moment. We are little islands in a chain. You and Bart. Me and Tim. Steph and Cass. And Kon and Kara are both their own island right now. There's some cross over, you guys have been supporting Kon, I know you're my friend even when you are disappointed with me etc. But.
I don't know what I am trying to say really. I'm angry and I've no right to be. And I'm tired of this situation. The stuckness.
Bart keeps saying that, too. I don't know what to do about it, or how we can change it--or if there's anything to do but give it time. I wish it was different, but it's not and I don't know how to change it.
I think we're all angry and tired. I don't know what to say either, Cass, except that maybe we just have to wait until Kon gets back now.
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Do you think I should go get him?
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I... You could do that? And come back? By choice, I mean. I don't know. He said he needs space, and maybe he does? But--I don't knooow. What do you think?
...Selfishly, I don't want you to go.
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I'd come back, you dork. I told you I'll always come back to you.
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I know. I do. It's just... We don't know what's going on there, but if they came back for Kon's help, it must be serious, and he won't leave before he's done, and if you're there, you'll want to help and--Blah.
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That's sort of what I do, Cissie. I help people that need help. It's what we do, isn't it?
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Do you... want to talk about it?
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Uh, I want to talk about it if it's going to be a problem.
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...I think I'm confused now. What's going to be a problem?
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I don't know, I'm confused, too.
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It's--I was having a stupid selfish moment, Bart. Sometimes I have them. I'm not always as strong as you think I am.
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It wasn't stupid. It's my fault, I'm just on edge because Kon's gone and I know why, and we all know why, and it's just going to make this team thing even harder. I'm sorry.
You're the strongest person I know. No little font. Big font. You're the strongest person I know. It takes strength to be the one that stays behind, Ciss, and to support us even when you can't be part of us. And... it takes strength to walk away. I told you all this.
I love you.
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It's my fault too, for the same reasons. And Cassie and I are talking and it's draining and I don't know what to say to her. And then--Kon would have gone with them even if he wasn't depressed. For the same reason you would stay to help if you went to get him.
:P You did. Thank you. I... Sometimes it's just harder than others, and I was having a moment. I didn't mean to make problems.
I love you too.
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I don't know what to say to her either. Tell her the truth?
Yeah, Kon would have gone anyway, but still. You know what I mean.
You didn't make problems. Though I think I might need some extra making out tonight, just in case.
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Maybe. I don't know. I wish this were easier.
Yeah, I do. I'm frustrated about the whole thing.
Okay, good. Extra making out can definitely happen, especially if there is also extra snuggling? I need hugs.
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...The Legion?
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Yeah. He said they need his help in the future and he'll be back soon.
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ok.
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The note says, "Stop freaking out, I'm probably fine. See you soon."
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Do you know when he left?
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You didn't do anything wrong, Cissie.
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...What are you thinking?
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I'm thinking a lot of things. We are not much of a team and maybe that's my fault but...I am not interested in assigning blame right now.
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I wasn't really thinking about us as a team at the moment, just as--us. And Kon would have gone with them to help no matter was going on here.
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Whatever we want to call it we are not a cohesive unit at the moment. We are little islands in a chain. You and Bart. Me and Tim. Steph and Cass. And Kon and Kara are both their own island right now. There's some cross over, you guys have been supporting Kon, I know you're my friend even when you are disappointed with me etc. But.
I don't know what I am trying to say really. I'm angry and I've no right to be. And I'm tired of this situation. The stuckness.
I'm sorry.
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Bart keeps saying that, too. I don't know what to do about it, or how we can change it--or if there's anything to do but give it time. I wish it was different, but it's not and I don't know how to change it.
I think we're all angry and tired. I don't know what to say either, Cass, except that maybe we just have to wait until Kon gets back now.
I'm sorry, too.
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Thank you for letting us know.
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Of course.