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OTC 39.5: Competitors and Quitters
Mar. 4th, 2009 04:24 am[Private: Hackable (because she's distracted)]
A competitor will find a way to win. Competitors take bad breaks and use them to drive themselves just that much harder. Quitters take bad breaks and use them as reasons to give up. It's all a matter of pride. ~Nancy Lopez
...That sounds like my mother. "You don't quit, Cissie." "Don't just give up." "Do better next time."
Okay, maybe that's not exactly what the quote is saying. But it seems close enough. It feels like something Mom would have typed up and laminated and framed, somewhere we could see it all the damn time.
( ...I don't know why I'm getting all bitter and annoyed. )
I guess--I'm happy. Happier as Cissie than I was as Arrowette, anyway, and that... has to count for something, right?
~1000 words
A competitor will find a way to win. Competitors take bad breaks and use them to drive themselves just that much harder. Quitters take bad breaks and use them as reasons to give up. It's all a matter of pride. ~Nancy Lopez
...That sounds like my mother. "You don't quit, Cissie." "Don't just give up." "Do better next time."
Okay, maybe that's not exactly what the quote is saying. But it seems close enough. It feels like something Mom would have typed up and laminated and framed, somewhere we could see it all the damn time.
( ...I don't know why I'm getting all bitter and annoyed. )
I guess--I'm happy. Happier as Cissie than I was as Arrowette, anyway, and that... has to count for something, right?
~1000 words
Two lists for ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
justprompts.
Ten Defining Moments of My Life (In No Particular Order, Save #1):
1. The first time Tim said he loved me. Our first kiss was pretty defining, too.
2. The night in the woods, and the day I officially quit Young Justice.I think I cried myself to sleep for like a week.
3. The Olympics. I had given up on archery until the trials, and the Games had their share of misery and badness, but standing on that podium and receiving that medal? Kind of gave me a new direction.
4. When Harm put that arrow through my shoulder. If he hadn’t, I wouldn’t have had an excuse to go looking for Bart and then there might not have been any Young Justice for me. Which would mean none of my best friends. And no Tim.
5. The first time I picked up a bow. I don’t really remember it, but trying to imagine my life without archery is like trying to imagine someone else’s life.
6. Arrowette’s first night out, and the night I met Bart and Max Mercury called Social Services on my mother. It feels weird to say that was a good thing, but—Mom and I get along better now than we ever did then. Though it really did suck when I was first taken away and put in Elias.
7. When my father died. I was five, but I remember that day perfectly, and I remember that the hospital waiting room had green plastic chairs. PeopleCassie are surprised when I say that I miss him, but I do. Even if I didn’t remember him—which I do—I would.
8. I was writing my autobiography and figured out that Mom lied, and that Daddy isn’t my biological father.I think Tim knows who that is, but I don’t want to know yet.
9. The Crisis. Losing Kon and… that year sucked. And then when things were finally feeling okay again, Bart died, too. Everybody else I love had better just stay safe, because I will kick some serious ass otherwise.Tim. I mean it.
10. Can I re-state #1?
( Ten Secrets I Wouldn’t Tell Anyone [Private, but it’s entirely possible that Tim could hack it ; )] )
OOC: Tim is![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
mrsarcastic003, and he and Cissie are dating. #8 in the first list is in reference to a fic that hasn’t been posted yet.
justprompts.Ten Defining Moments of My Life (In No Particular Order, Save #1):
1. The first time Tim said he loved me. Our first kiss was pretty defining, too.
2. The night in the woods, and the day I officially quit Young Justice.
3. The Olympics. I had given up on archery until the trials, and the Games had their share of misery and badness, but standing on that podium and receiving that medal? Kind of gave me a new direction.
4. When Harm put that arrow through my shoulder. If he hadn’t, I wouldn’t have had an excuse to go looking for Bart and then there might not have been any Young Justice for me. Which would mean none of my best friends. And no Tim.
5. The first time I picked up a bow. I don’t really remember it, but trying to imagine my life without archery is like trying to imagine someone else’s life.
6. Arrowette’s first night out, and the night I met Bart and Max Mercury called Social Services on my mother. It feels weird to say that was a good thing, but—Mom and I get along better now than we ever did then. Though it really did suck when I was first taken away and put in Elias.
7. When my father died. I was five, but I remember that day perfectly, and I remember that the hospital waiting room had green plastic chairs. People
8. I was writing my autobiography and figured out that Mom lied, and that Daddy isn’t my biological father.
9. The Crisis. Losing Kon and… that year sucked. And then when things were finally feeling okay again, Bart died, too. Everybody else I love had better just stay safe, because I will kick some serious ass otherwise.
10. Can I re-state #1?
( Ten Secrets I Wouldn’t Tell Anyone [Private, but it’s entirely possible that Tim could hack it ; )] )
OOC: Tim is
mrsarcastic003, and he and Cissie are dating. #8 in the first list is in reference to a fic that hasn’t been posted yet.OTC 9.1: Control
Aug. 23rd, 2008 01:30 pmon_thecouch 9.1: Control.I haven’t had much control over my life—not until the last few years, anyway. And even then… It’s only just lately that I’ve really started to feel in control. Of myself, anyway.
Which, really, is the important thing. Because I can’t afford to not be in control. Of myself.
Go ahead—call me a control freak. Maybe I am. Can you blame me? I spent fourteen years so controlled by my mother that I didn’t dare make a decision without her approval. Even just deciding what to have for lunch was beyond my ability. I hated it, but that’s how it was. Mom home schooled me so she could enroll me in every kind of class imaginable. It’s a good thing she did that, instead of teaching me herself, because I don’t even want to think about what my social skills would have been like otherwise.
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